good day and productive , grateful for this life and not fighting for attention of anyone. thank you Allah for this life and for giving me this chance to live and learn and grow and improve and help others and make a difference in this world.

Current goal : Build the habit of deep work — consistent, distraction-free focus to master coding/DSA long-term. Eventually reach 4 hours/day of deep work through gradual compounding. Nov 3, 2025 — Woke 7:00 a.m. Started deep work at 7:10 a.m. for 30 mins. Studied Inheritance and Polymorphism in Java. Focus: 8/10. Felt solid, no distractions.

self-improvement is good

my biggest weakness in my life is not porn addiction, not communicating well, not physique, not insecurity, but: "Starting thing that I don't able to finish". any course, books, etc. Jumping from one course to another, this playlist to others, this book to that book, fr. ex: starting javascript by super side but not finishing etc. You are like catching rabbit many at once so you don't able to catch one. Reading books that I don't finish. So now I have started the react course, if I switch to other course. That means again I'm repeating the same mistake. So my biggest commitment is to learn small but learn daily, if you can not understand, it's mean you are just avoiding or running away from fear. and one more thing you can't improve all at once, you just have to pick one. improve all at once. Impossible. Become performer not strategist/ don't go into intellectual mental masturbation by acquiring knowledge. Just have goal what to build startup working on it. you have to learn by practice -> the only way you can learn. Take Action! Take Action! Take Action! Take Action! Only way to improve, not be whose who philosophy only acquire knowledge, never use it...

i have realised that i am judging other more than normal i think i should shift focus from people to me to just improve see my fallacies what i am incapable of, what i am about insecure of, my communication skill is not too good, why i am fear speaking on stage, why i am inconsistent to gym, why i am skinny after 1 year of inconsistent gym, when i have problem and need to improve why i am laughing on other problem if you able to tackle your own problem. hope next will doing what he is capable but result not came yet. it's stupid to laugh on other person stuff when you are in gutter. aware about this stuff.. thanks life.

i have made a rule for myself for my whole life for weekend. currently i have college so other day i don't have in daytime focused session but weekend is all in my hand in my control how i want to spend. so the rule goes like this - desktop bcz i use this most : no youtube ( i have downloaded lecture offline using yt-dlp , no reddit, no any shopping site ( except if i have to track order or receive ) , no twitter, no instagram, no movie , no entertainment stuff online... that's it... and on phone minimal launcher for 2 days.. my main goal is to just get two days break from getting more information. i say that information diet for 2 days. this is will help me focus on meaningful work, and confront to myself

integrity : it's a choice between what convenient and whats right. hard tk develop bcz it need courage radical honestly, but this is the only way to truly live

today i have done - washes clothes, rotten egg to trash, eaten 12 eggs fear of rotting, black coffee, and further looking for optimistic life. completed and study todays plan ( recursion ) focused work with little bit decison fatigue.. day was good bye...

i am getting the feeling of for my my blog reading section that i am showing listing books for attention and potentially his cover. i was thinking like i am becoming attention whores. so i removed all cover and listed book that i really read no hurry.

winter arc goal : 4 hour deep work habit at end of arc & build gym habit and gain 3 kg weight.

i will two books per month from now. that will keep control of information masturbation and forces me take practically action and improve your life if non fiction.. thats all

one funny childhood story i can remember of mine is - actually what happen is when i am in hostel eye flu is spread in my hostel and the student are going home due to this reason but that fucking disease not reached to me and my bois , so what we did is we apply detergent soap directly into our eyes and that get totally red more than eye flu , then we got permission and i got to home... that's all hope you liked it..

backbiting

today i have come across the very realization that i have been backbiting people from very birth. till now i know the meaning of backbiting is - telling secret of people to other and i was satisfied that i am not backbiting other. but today i know the exact definition of what actually backbiting is when i was talking with one of my friend he explained me what actually backbiting is he says anything that harm other person dignity is backbiting. then fuck i am backbiting and lowering my standard in all my childhood, although i don't typically backbite other like girls and never spread false of anyone. i spread true ( but negative ) of others that attack other person dignity and character. what actually backbiting is : read this article https://myislam.org/backbiting-in-islam/ what actually hit was this : In the hadith of Abu Dawud 4874, Prophet Muhammad (ﷺ) was asked a question about Ghibah (backbiting). Someone came to him and said what if what I say about my brother is in fact truth? Prophet Muhammad (ﷺ) replied, if are right, you have slandered him, and if what you say of him is not true, you have reviled him. [1] my key takeaway is - وَيْلٌ لِكُلِّ هُمَزَةٍ لُمَزَةٍ “Woe to every persistent slanderer, persistent defamer” “I will speak ill of no man and speak all the good I know of everybody.” ― Benjamin Franklin On the flip side… If you are a victim of backbiting take comfort in knowing that they are only helping you on the day of judgement. Of course protect your character if you feel it is threatened but do so with integrity. Do not fall victim by engaging in the same game. We must show discipline and emotional fortitude and overcome such petty altercations.

from now on i am not going to talk ill of anyone, never spread negative information of other person even if it is true, not bcz it is harm other dignity and respect but also it is lowering my character as a man. controlling tongue is very important for the exchange of temporary relief.

when we reach in our 20s we try to rationalize every decision for example like i should not behave like this or that i am not that type of person, not realizing that our thinking can be faulty and cause life long drift in direction.don't attach with any identity if it will not benefit you, like i am not the person who goes into religious and political rant bcz these are just draining my energy until i am not in that politics or religious field. but on the other hand i make identity of me like i am the person who hardworking , work autonomously bcz i have good habit..

now i realised that after studying little i can get cgpa more than my peers, till now i understand college studies like shit totally not giving a damn fuck. now i realized even 5 hour focused study can get me good cgpa for the entire sem. so i have to study discret maths, operating system, java ( that i am doing more seroiusly bcz i am stuing dsa), computer networks, computer organization and architecture, and other assignment shit ehich i dont like... so quickly i will complete this maths and operating system first then go on next... coa then the whole dsa and java...

let's say you solve all your dating and women problem, like dating, sex and anything related to women, this doesn't mean you solved all you life problem no women can solve your working hard, lifting heavy weight , facing fear on mountain, fear anything this is totally different thing. so i give advice to me is jsut play this game and quickly back to your life and making yourself better and winner.

Future Cool idea to build :-

The “Shredding Alarm Clock” is a quirky, motivational device designed to punish snoozing. It functions like a normal alarm clock, but with a twist: when the alarm goes off, you must turn it off within a set time, or a small motorized shredder destroys whatever is placed your real money . The device combines an alarm system, a motorized shredder, and a microcontroller to enforce punctuality in a fun and slightly mischievous way. It’s a playful reminder that procrastination—or oversleeping—can come at a cost!

Tynan Notes on Friendship

How To Make Amazing Friends

• Value friendships: They bring more joy than careers or possessions.
• Be excellent: Improve yourself, know your worth, be a friend others feel lucky to have.
• Be intentional: Identify traits you want in friends and choose carefully.
• Prioritize time: Spend it with people who help you grow; better alone than with the wrong people.
• Be patient: Building a strong friend group takes time and gradual introductions.
• Contribute positively: Actively improve your friends’ lives whenever possible.

How To Make Lots of Great Friends

• Value people: Friends and family are the most important source of gratitude.
• Don’t be annoying: Self-awareness is key; eliminate habits that push people away.
• Leverage introductions: Trust is involved when someone introduces you—make them look good.
• Bring value: Contribute positively to friends’ lives (humor, listening, advice, organizing).
• Be proactive: Friendship shouldn’t be left to chance; engage, introspect, and actively improve your social life.

Making Friends with Awesome People

• Friend circles matter: Being proactive about building a great friend group is crucial.
• Understand sought-after people: Popular or well-connected people are cautious—time with them is limited and valuable.
• Provide value & be unneedy: Ensure they enjoy your company, don’t impose, and avoid asking for favors.
• Be a connector: Introduce new people to your existing friends; it multiplies social opportunities.
• Meet people in person: Hanging out where your desired friends already are is more effective than cold emailing.
• Focus on quality, not fame: Build friendships for shared values and connection, not prestige or personal gain

Treating Strangers Like Friends

• Treat everyone like a friend: Engage strangers genuinely, listen, and respond as if they’re real people.
• Simple habits matter: Small gestures (like asking questions, sharing a bit of yourself) create meaningful connections.
• Technology can reduce substance: Personal, thoughtful interactions matter more than scripted or surface-level communication.
• Mutual benefit: Treating others well feels good and often encourages reciprocal kindness
• Friends vs strangers: People are willing to go further for friends; treating strangers warmly can sometimes elevate them to friend-like status.
• Real-world examples: Genuine friendliness leads to unexpected favors, opportunities, and deeper connections.
• Real-world examples: Genuine friendliness leads to unexpected favors, opportunities, and deeper connections.
• Happiness formula: Being human and kind fosters connection and increases personal joy.

Have Less Acquaintances, More Friends

• Prioritize quality over quantity: Cutting back on socializing and acquaintances allows more focus on truly meaningful friendships.
• Acquaintances aren’t free: Time spent with shallow connections reduces energy and time for potential or existing deep friendships.
• Prune the noise: Reducing superficial interactions clarifies patterns in the friends you truly value.
• Patterns in great friends: Good people: Positive, noble, inspiring actions; Optimistic mindset: Resilient and forward-looking even in adversity; Ambitious/entrepreneurial: Many have intentionally chosen impactful careers or ventures.
• Use patterns for screening: Focus energy on people who fit these traits, and limit time with those who don’t.
• Outcome: Fewer acquaintances, stronger connections, and friendships that inspire growth.

lesson from Islam Makhachev -

• If you want other to respect you, you have to respect others first.
• Never lie to yourself about your current skill level.
• Have strong values and stand up for your values.
• It’s always best to let the result do the talking.

i was on some women forum on reddit and i also generally observed women saying like “ i want a guy, here is my list - i think that guy that checks all ticks in my list ( for e.g. 6 ft tall, muscular , rich, jawline , fairness, etc all the bullshit you heard of commonly ” but on the contrary i think it is exactly same you go to buying stuff like suppose i want to buy powerful pc and in my list i want feature like ryzen 5, 16gb ram, 4k monitor , vertical and horizontal, logitech mouse, keychron Q1 max mechanical keyboard - if all the stuff matches my list i will buy same like women selects men.

no amount of money, fame, product can bring you peace if you don't able to beat resistance that limiting your potential. no matter there is about porn addiction or study 4 hour per day for 5 years. until resistance beat you, you're just living external thing losing yourself just for attention and praise.keep youself alive by chasing best of you from yesterday you was. best analogy is "man is rock and sculptor of himself". by the way others around you are all still just silly child, just avoid them...

i love how people simply play games without knowing, trying to dominate and manipulate - don't give fuck just move on or play better games or better manipulative tactics and be dominant. that's why like machiavelli..

Until you go till the extreme, you can’t find balance. before is the path of moderation and mediocrity. like buddha find middle path when he goes to the extreme like after living luxury to till death asceticism and hence concluded with "the middle path"

situation i laugh on - today i not go to college just because i do not have pants for outing/college - i have 2 pants only and both in laundary. i have one extra pant but it is skinny as fuck that looks cringy on peak.